This is something that has been very hard for me to understand. I know that God has a plan and there is a reason behind why He has decided not to bless me with a child yet. There are months that are easy to trust in Him and realize that He works all things out for good. On the other hand, there are months that I am frustrated. Is it okay for me to admit that? I don't like to admit that because I feel like I am not trusting in Him at those times, but we are all human flesh and can't understand everything.
Wow, I never thought that word would show up in my vocabulary. I never dreamed I would have to go to the doctor because of that word. That word never crossed my mind when we first started trying to conceive. That word haunts me EVERY. SINGLE. MONTH.